As I sat alone at the airport holding back the tears, my eyes bloodshot and puffy having cried so much after saying our heart-wrenching goodbyes. I felt as if my heart had shattered into a million pieces, and the pain felt unbearable. 

A man came to sit next to me then thought better of it. I looked like a mess, so who can blame him.

Trying to hold it together pushing me further into feeling sorry for myself, the tears trickled down my cheeks once more. ‘Even he doesn’t want to know me, a complete stranger, I’m such a loser when it comes to men’. 

The thought of the long plane journey home filled me with fear and dread.

What was I going home to?
What would I do for work?

I had given up my whole life for him. I thought he was the love of my life and now I have nothing. 

In the weeks that followed, I went through the motions, numbing the pain with food, alcohol, in fact, anything that would provide me with instant gratification, to feel empty and numb only moments later.

The truth is the weeks turned into months, and the months turned into years. Ten years in fact. 

Unbeknown to me, I’d put up walls around my heart and was emotionally shut down. 

Telling myself, I was ok. After all, I had a successful career, so what did I need a man for anyway? But the truth is I was miserable. Desperate to have children, I felt like a failure. 

If any of this resonates with you, I’m here to tell you it doesn’t have to be this way. 

Since then, I’ve learnt a broken heart is a way to heal the past. 

You have the choice. To close it down and to shut love out or to feel the emotions, let the walls come down and open it up to a more expansive love. 

I believe a broken heart is when we are open and vulnerable and in one of our most surrendered states. It’s asking us to open our hearts further and go to this deeper level of healing.

And as you do, you uncover the ‘untruths’ programmed in your subconscious. Lies you believed as a child, ‘I’m not lovable’, ‘not good enough’  ‘not enough’ or ‘too much’.   

And when you do, you’ll come out the other side a more expanded version of YOU. 

You’ll become closer to the truth of who you are, who you were born to be.

It is then, and only then, you can embrace true love. The love you have for yourself, and when you do, you’ll attract a man who will love you in the way you deserve and desire. Who will love, cherish and respect you for who you are. Who will love all parts of you as you honour and love all aspects of yourself once again.  

And learning to love you is the secret to true love. 

Love always

Rebecca x

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