I’d suspected it for some time.

I even asked him only to be shut down and made to feel like an idiot for asking. 

And there it was, the moment I’d been dreading, a message from him that clearly was not meant for me. 

Somewhat unprofessional but desperate to know, I asked a work colleague I’d only just met, what does this mean? ‘It doesn’t sound good’ she said ‘but you’ll know when you see him, he’ll look different, guilty’.

I didn’t know what she meant and had a few days to wait until he got home as he was away “on business”. 

When he returned, I sat upstairs on the bed, not knowing what to do, just wanting to run. To run far away from him. To stop this turmoil I was feeling, all of the noise going on in my head, the pain in my heart, and the numbness taking over every inch of my body. 

And when he walked into the room, I knew.  It was exactly as she’d said, he looked different and guilty. He tried to deny it but we both knew it was game over.

The weeks that played out after that was a blur.

As I tried to plan my escape, I went from immense feelings of fear then sadness, wondering where it had all gone wrong. I felt like he’d ripped my heart out, discarded it, and the past four years had meant nothing. 

The real low point was when a dating site advert came on TV, my whole body filled with dread, oh no, not all that again! How could he do this to me? 

I’d had broken hearts before, however this time it was different.

This time, I decided I would only take a few months to get over him and then I would move on. At the age of 45, I’d wasted more than enough time getting over broken relationships and he didn’t deserve any more time than that.

Sure enough, having moved out of the house we’d shared together, only a month later I immersed out of my healing space a different person. Stronger and ready to date again, I signed up for online dating which I never even needed. 

I noticed men were looking at me and even went on a few dates. 

And only six weeks later, I met the man who is now my husband. 

The decisions we make really are that powerful. It took less than two months!

How did I do it?  I used a combination of powerful healing techniques that I share in my Attracting Love Programme. 

Attracting love is a compassionate journey of self-discovery, self-love, healing and transformation. 

Although I didn’t realise it at the time, I had difficulty trusting men, so I attracted a man who couldn’t be trusted. 

Getting clear on the beliefs around this meant I could let go of them and attract a man who’s loyal and who I totally trust. 

And it wasn’t long before I was able to truly forgive and see the gift this experience had given me. This was one of the hardest yet enriching experiences of my life, and I grew in self-love and compassion in a way I had never experienced before. 

With an abundance of self-love, I honoured what was right for me.

No longer coming from a place of fear, lack or not good enough, I was no longer willing to settle for anything less than what I desired and deserved.

And it’s my wish for you to have this too.
Love always

Rebecca x

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